When I was beaten to the ground and falling apart on the weekend I found it hard to pray and focus on God, even though I knew I desperately needed to. But even when I didn’t look to Him, He was still there for me. Through God’s Not Done With You by Tauren Wells from Hills and Valleys (2017) I was able to just keep going, knowing that even though there will be a scar, it isn’t the end.

Standing in your ruins, feels a lot like the end,
So used to losing, you’re afraid to try again,
Right now all you see are ashes,
Where there was a flame,
The truth is that you’re not forgotten,
‘Cause Grace knows your name,

God’s not done with you,
Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars,
God’s not done with you,
Even when you’re lost and it’s hard and you’re falling apart,
God’s not done with you,
It’s not over, it’s only begun,
So don’t hide, don’t run,
‘Cause God’s not done with you.

I wondered a few months ago if I should be afraid of a complete breakdown? Because if I’m not afraid of it I’ll be able to put myself in situations where I know it’ll happen that I currently avoid. I’m still wondering about that, but I know that I breakdown a lot anyway and need to look to God more during them.

There’s a light you don’t notice,
Until you’re standing in the dark,
And there’s a strength that’s growing,
Inside your shattered heart…

He’s got a plan, this is part of it,
He’s gonna finish what He started,
He’s got a plan, this is part of it,
He’s gonna finish what He started,
He’s not done,
God’s not done writing your story,
No, He’s not done,
God’s not done with you!

God’s Not Done With You – Tauren Wells